it’s never easy saying goodbye

It has been a little quiet over here the last couple of days.  On Thursday my mom came and helped me pack all day long…we were super productive and got all the big rooms finished.  I don’t know what I would have done without all the help from our moms…such a blessing.

Wednesday and Friday were days full of goodbyes as I tutored Bomi for the last time, taught my last PiYo class and had my last tutoring appointment with Hye kyoung.

Bomi and I

It’s never easy saying goodbye.  Friday morning there were many tears and promises that it’s only goodbye for now.  But in the end I just had to walk away as Hye kyoung cried, closing her office door behind me for the last time.  I came home and had a cry fest/ pity party for myself for about thirty minutes, and then the tears ran dry.  And then I just laid, staring up at the ceiling, promising myself that this move is going to last.  This time we aren’t going to have to say goodbye after such a short time.  It seems like just yesterday that we were saying goodbye to our Thai friend, P’Dew, as we stood crying and waving in the middle of our street in Chiang Mai.  It’s amazing how time flies.

Next up on the list: goodbye house and goodbye baby Olive.

The house I can handle.  Yes I will miss it.  And I will cry and reminisce about the first day we walked in and all the good memories here.  But in the end I will remember that it is just a house.  And we will make our home wherever we go.

On the other hand, I honestly do not know how I will say goodbye to my little dog.  The reality is that she will only be ten minutes away, but it just will not be the same.  She won’t be there to kiss my face in the morning, welcome me when I come home from the day or lay on my lap as I work in the evening.  After a day full of high emotions, it’s more than I can bear to think about right now, leaving her. There are moments where I really do not know if I can do it.  Today as I laid on the bed, feeling so downtrodden about leaving Hye kyoung, I held my baby close and after awhile the distress of missing Hye kyoung and the sadness that has already set in from missing O began to melt together and I could no longer tell them apart. Thankfully we still have a couple of days left as we will move all of our stuff out of the house tomorrow, but the husband and I will sleep here on an air mattress Saturday and Sunday night with Olive in tow.  And then Monday morning we will close, and off we’ll go – him to work and me to our new town to leave Olive at my grandma’s.  :(

Unfortunately I don’t have any food to show you this morning.  Since Thursday afternoon we’ve been eating leftovers, Amy’s frozen dinners and meals out.  With all the craziness I honestly haven’t missed cooking, but it will be really nice to get back into the swing of things come Monday.

Thank you all so much for sticking around during this crazy time of transition. Things will soon be closer to normal around here, and every post won’t be a sappy, sad story.  I appreciate all your comments, encouragement and advice – you give life to my blog, and I’m so thankful!

I hope everyone is having a great start to the weekend!  On a more exciting and positive note, tomorrow is the husband’s 28th birthday, and even thought we’ll be loading boxes all day, I’m going to make it as special as I can.  I’ll be back with more about that tomorrow.

What is a situation you can remember where you had to say goodbye to someone important to you?

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it’s going to be an epic day

You know they always say it must get worse before it gets better…

I slightly cannot believe that I posted pictures of our house in this kind of state for the whole world to see.  Don’t judge.

This morning I was back to not feeling the green smoothie, so I went with the quickest breakfast food I could think of – pb toast (natural peanut butter on ezekiel toast), eaten on a paper plate atop a box.  The LBD of breakfast foods if you will.

Today is going to be an epic day. I really was about to write “today is going to be overwhelming and sad” but I decided to go with that self fulfilling prophecy theory.  Does it still count even though I told you that?

Anyway.  Today is going to be an epic day. I have my last tutoring appointment with one of my favorite Korean students, Bomi.  She is the cutest thing ever, and I’m really going to miss her so much.  Her husband (also my student) makes fun of us because every single time he walks up during our appointments we are always laughing.  I think he probably wonders why he’s paying me:)

I also have my last yoga class tonight.  I’m planning to start teaching a new class once we get moved, but as of now I don’t have anything lined up.  I’m quite proud of how my class has gone.  I was so afraid that when I took over the class, people might stop coming.  But they didn’t.  They kept coming, and the attendance has done nothing but go up over the last six months.  I love all of the ladies (and man) that come, and my Wednesday nights just won’t be the same.

Anyway, judging by the picture above other than tutoring and yoga I’ll be spending the day procrastinating organizing and packing as much as I can before my mom comes tomorrow.

In the meantime, I thought I’d leave you with a couple of my favorite blogs as of late.  I have a million of course…and these in particular are not even food blogs.  But they always put a smile on my face or inspire me in some way, so maybe they’ll do the same for you! Honestly, I haven’t had time to even look at a blog in the last several days and I know it probably won’t get any better for another week or so…but I promise I’ll try to drop in to see you guys as much as I can.  If I don’t comment, just know it’s not because I don’t love you…more because I’m buried in boxes!  I will be back!

I’m sure a lot of you have heard of these because they’re uber popular…but just in case you haven’t – go check them out!

Aura Joon – Aura takes the most beautiful pictures and always has inspiring words to go with them.  She writes about everything from decorating to traveling to welcoming her new little baby girl in just a couple of weeks.

Kendi Everyday – Kendi writes an amazing style blog and offers tons of inspiration about what to wear.  But honestly, I go there for the laughs as much as the style – this girl is hilarious:)

Happy Wednesday!

What is one of your favorite blogs that just brings a smile to your face?

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greens are back!


This morning I started the day off with a trip to the gym for a run.  I ended up knocking out 3.6 miles before doing some stretching and push-ups, and then heading home.  For the last couple of months my workouts have been pretty irregular, so I’ve been trying to get back into some sort of routine.  Which is comical because the word routine really doesn’t have a place in my life right now.

Something else I’ve come back to after a 5 day hiatus is green smoothies!

I had to start taking some medication last week, and it completely robbed me of my appetite!  There were certain things I could tolerate to eat, but one food group in particular was OUT.  And that would be vegetables.  A tragedy.

But now they’re back in full swing praise the Lord.

As predicted, this past weekend was so sweet despite the busyness.  On Friday night we met with our house superintendent and our builder to finalize the house plans.  We went through every single area of the house – inside and out – deciding on everything from doorway arches to outlets.  It was a really fun meeting, and we’re hoping to be able to get our foundation poured in the next week.  Fingers crossed!

We had been warned that our superintendent was….a little rough around the edges.  One of those “shoot it to you straight” kind of guys.  And he was.  But I really liked him.  His best line of the night said when the husband asked him what is normal as far as matching exterior colors: “Don’t even ask me about normal.  Nothing about this house is normal, so let’s not even go there.”

The husband and I tend to like sort of a unique style…and I don’t think Doug is used to working with our type.  It’ll be good for him though. hah.

After out meeting we celebrated by eating out some mexican food and then went shopping for some birthday shoes for the husband.  His big 2-8 is coming up this weekend, on moving day nonetheless. Poor husband.

Saturday morning we enjoyed the beautiful weather by going for a drive…taking the long way to our favorite bagel shop.

And after filling up with an everything bagel + Tofutti cream cheese, we set out on a walk to campus.  I really needed the fresh air, sunshine and endorphins, and it felt so good to just get out of the house after all the cold weather as of late. Olive had a banner day, obviously.

less than thrilled to have his picture taken

Later in the morning my mother-in-law came into  town to help us pack, and thank the heavens she did.  She cracked down on us and our procrastination, and we all three packed for about 10 hours total between Saturday and Sunday.  We were so productive and got so much done, but it really made me realize how much we have left to do!  I’m so glad she came because otherwise I’d be in a bad place at this point.

update: I decided for the time being I am growing my hair out, but the resulting poofiness is about to send me running to the salon

Sunday we stayed home from church in lieu of maximizing time packing with MIL, but the husband and I did rise early and go for a 4 mile run. Aside from the 30 mile an hour gusts of wind, the run wasn’t half bad.  You know how you just have on days and off days?  Well, this was an on day for me.  No amount of wind could have kept me from rocking that run.  I love days like that!  By about hour four of packing, my legs were really feeling it, though.

This week will be a bit sparse as far as good food because I currently am finishing packing up my entire kitchen.  Last night I made vegan enchiladas for dinner, and I made enough to have leftovers one night this week. Other than that we’ll probably be eating veggie wraps, Amy’s, or cereal for the rest of our meals.  It’s only for a week though!  I just keep reminding myself of that.

In other news, I still need to share a couple of tasty raw (ish) meals I made last week before the aversion to veggies took over.  I initially found both of these in Crazy Sexy Diet, and they’re so good they’re even husband approved!  Typically I don’t have a hard time keeping it raw until lunch, but when dinner comes this girl needs some cooked (read: hot!) food.  This is an example of a meal I had for dinner a couple of times.

I filled a plate up with a massaged kale avocado salad.

With it I had a smaller portion of quinoa with slightly stir-fried veggies.

For the salad, I tore up a whole bunch of kale into bite sized pieces.  Then I added about 1 tbsp olive oil, 1 tbsp lemon juice and 1 small avocado, and I got my hands in there and massaged away.  The dressing turned into a creamy coating over all the leaves that softened the kale, both texture and flavor wise.  The husband commented that it tasted quite similar to a ceasar salad, and I would have to agree!

Next, I very lightly sauteed various veggies (zucchini, broccoli, carrots, cabbage, onions etc) in a wok and then sprayed them with Braggs several times.  Just before it was done, I added the chick peas and stir friend until they were heated through.  Meanwhile, I had a pot of quinoa cooking on the stove, and when it was all done I poured the veggies over the quinoa, plated it, and that was it!

This meal was so easy and delicious!  I had the salad again the next day for lunch, and still had leftovers after that.  So if you’re eating alone, you may want to half the recipe.

I’m getting in some extra tutoring hours with my students this week as they all have some really important events coming up.  Works out for me too because I’ve got some important events coming up that need some money!  Otherwise, the husband and I are just trying to keep our heads above water with work and packing.  It’s a crazy time for sure!

Hope you all had a lovely weekend!

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happy weekend

Happy Friday, ya’ll!

I’m currently sitting at Panera eating the best sandwich ever created.  Not a bad start to the weekend for sure.

The husband and I met with our lender a couple hours ago, and we’re going to meet with our builder in another couple hours to finalize the plans for our house. yay!

I promise one day soon I’ll stop talking about packing and moving.  Actually, let’s be real. I’ll probably be talking about packing and moving off and on for the next four months until the glorious day when we move into our house.  But I do promise to try and minimize it.

So anyway, there is only one precious week left in our house.  Only one week left with my students. Only one week left with Olive:(  That’s right, we decided to go with the option of living with my mom and step-dad, despite the fact that Olive will have to live somewhere else. It has been a brutal decision making process.  And I still cry every time I think about it.  But for various reasons it seems that it’s the decision we have to make.  I keep telling myself that I’m strong enough to be mature and make the best of the decision.  We shall see.

So, we will spend the weekend packing like our lives depend on it!  And soaking in every moment as a family of three in our very first house.

What will you be doing this weekend?  I hope it’s a lovely one:)

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hello, spring


What a beautiful week it has been so far – I am loving this weather.  Do you have great weather where you are?  Sorry to rub it in if not.

Yesterday it was so nice that I got a sunburn!  Hello, spring.  I had a break between tutoring appointments, so I decided to sit out on the lawn of our campus library to eat lunch.  Forty-five minutes later my chest was red – glad I had on long sleeves. I’m not sure why campus looks deserted in these pictures, there were people all around me.

greens topped with leftover stir-fry veggies/chickpeas + quinoa + lightly steamed brussel sprouts + tahini dressing

I got to feeling a bit nostalgic sitting there – I’ve spent many days on library lawn from walking to classes in college to long walks with the husband and Olive.  So many good memories. I even buried a baby chicken on that lawn during my freshman year of college.  Don’t ask.

I also got up this morning and went for a 3 mile run outside.  In a tank top and shorts!  I was planning on wearing a jacket, but when I stepped outside I realized it was way too warm for a jacket, so off I went.  It definitely felt like spring and almost like summer.  There was also a nice strong wind, which made for a tough run.  But I made it through with the addition of a few walk breaks.  It was so much more refreshing than the treadmill – my vitamin D levels must be sky high after yesterday and today!

I’m going to have to keep this post short, but I’ll be back soon with a couple of tasty raw meals I’ve been enjoying the last couple of days.  I made them for dinner a couple of nights ago, and even the husband was a huge fan.  Score.  Also coming up soon is another product review!  I love trying out new cooking (or not! – hint) tools, so I’m excited to work with CSN again.  Remember when I reviewed the spiralizer last fall? This time will be similar, but with a new and just as fun product.  If you haven’t checked out CSN sites yet, head over there if you get the chance.  They really do have every item you can imagine…everything from swing sets to…well, spiralizers.  You can’t get much more widespread than that!

With that I’m off to a tutoring appointment – I’ll see you later!

Hope your having a lovely Thursday…only one more day ’till the weekend!

What’s your favorite nice weather activity?
I think mine is just sitting in the sun, feeling the breeze and soaking it all up!

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