truths about (my) pregnancy

I feel like I’ve let so much of this pregnancy go by without documenting it; the main reason being that I’ve just been living it.  Whether sick on the couch (months 1-4) or working on the nursery, starting registries and researching everything under the sun (months 5-6), I’ve been so busy just staying up with the day-to-day that I haven’t had time to write a lot.  Of course there’s a piece of me that is a bit sad about this…though I can’t imagine ever forgetting the reality and the magic of the last 6.5 months anyway.

Regardless, it has been the craziest time of things I never imagined would happen and things I totally expected (but could have never prepared for).  And of course just mundane, run-of-the-mill occurrences.

-  dressing the bump has been much more challenging than I imagined!  Who are these people that can wear their regular pants with a band through month 6, 7 and 8??  While most days it is fun to find creative things to wear, I don’t have any pants!!  I’ve never been able to really find maternity pants that I like and that are not super expensive.  I have a couple pairs of maternity jeans, but obviously I can’t wear jeans to work, so….

-  I will never, ever get over feeling these babies inside me.  Whether it feels like they’re punching me from the inside or just moving up, creating a huge lump in one area of my stomach, I get giddy everytime.  It’s so funny to me.  It’s like they’re saying “hi, mama!  we’re still in here!”

-  having two babies insides hurts!  I know this probably sounds crazy, but I never expected pain…at least not until the very end.  And I have nothing to compare it to, so maybe if there was just one baby in there it wouldn’t be the same?  Rolling over, sitting up, lifting my leg (!)…activities that seem easy create serious pain my stomach.  Last week I asked my doctor if it’s normal to have pain and discomfort so much, and he very patiently explained that yes, especially with two in there, it’s going to be a bit painful.

-  I feel full, even when I’m hungry!  I figured in the last few weeks of pregnancy, things would start getting tight and creating a lack of space for food, but I didn’t know it would happen this early.  I feel like in the past I’ve heard people talk about how much pregnant girls eat…but I can barely eat anything, and I start feeling like my stomach is going to explode.  That’s the only way I can describe it.  It literally feels like my stomach cannot expand any further.  Sometimes my eyes deceive me, and I forget that I can’t eat the same sized portions that I used to.  But I’m slowly learning to be more aware because it is a rather uncomfortable feeling to think you might just burst wide open.  I would see this as a great thing – you know, appetite control – but I seem to still be gaining weight at a steady pace:)  hmmmm.

maybe it’s because of these guys?

-  nausea is not the only symptom of pregnancy.  I don’t think I really thought this, per se…it’s just the only one people really talk about.  Oh, there are so many others, which I think are even more prevalent, that no one ever talks about!  Or maybe I’ve just talked to the right people.  Heartburn would be at the top of the list for me….among others I’d rather not discuss…

There is a lot more I could add here, but these are the main ones off the top of my head.  Overall, this has been the best experience of my life by far…the good and the challenging.  I already have this conflicting feeling of wanting to meet baby boy and girl, but also wanting them to stay in there so this doesn’t have to end.  I’m sure those of you who have been pregnant before are thinking “just give it another several weeks.”  And you might be right…we’ll see:)

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olive is getting…

So this weekend a random man in Home Depot said I looked like I could just “deliver that baby right then and there.”

Um….thanks?  I guess that means I’m getting bigger.  I’m going to choose to take that as a compliment ’cause these babies are growing!

And for an extremely far overdue announcement – little miss Olive is getting a…


A mini Candice and a mini Jon will be joining us in just a few short months, and we couldn’t be more excited!  And just for the record, I guessed it;)

week 24 (left) and week 25 (right)

I always wondered why pregnant girls would stand like I am on the left.  But every week I felt more and more awkward trying to pose.  Before I even knew what I was doing last week, up went the right arm and the left followed.  And there I was.  Now I know.

How can I possible still have 15 weeks left to grow?  Where are these babies going to go?  The questions I ask myself a million times a day.

So many fun things from the last few weeks.  Best of all – Jon felt baby girl move!  Several times I had tried to call him over to feel, but the second he got close, they’d get all shy.  Finally, just a few days ago, our sweet baby girl decided to give her daddy a good, hard kick. yay!

We’ve also made several fun purchases as of recent – a chair big enough for our entire family of 5, sheets, a sweet little doll and our first cloth diaper.

And today I received an invitation to the first one of my showers!

It has definitely been a big couple of weeks as far as baby progress.  I still have to stop and tell myself that this is really happening quite often.  The days of wondering if we would ever have a little McCoy are still far too fresh in my mind.  It’s still really hard for me to digest that God has really given us two babies.

I know we don’t deserve it, and I only wish I could make the same thing happen for all the sweet girls I know who are longing for this very thing.

I do promise one thing, though.  I will never ever take this baby boy or girl for granted.  I’ll never forget what it felt like to want them so badly and not know if God would ever bring them to me.  And for that reason alone, I am thankful for the experience of infertility.


Aside from the big “countdown to babies,” I’m also pretty focused on counting down to the last day of school.  Only 23 days left.  I can hardly believe it.  Honestly, this has been such a great year of school.  If you’ve read my blog in the past, you know that teaching and I have not always gotten along super well.  But this year has been different.  I have some seriously amazing kids, and I think having an extra year of experience under my belt didn’t hurt.  Either way, I’m really going to miss it.

When I told my principal I was leaving, I said “a baby is the only thing that could take me away from here.”  And I actually meant it.  I’m really thankful to be leaving on a good note.  I’m not sure if I’ll go back someday or not…who knows where life will take us.  But what a relief to not be running away this time.

I will be kind of relieved when this rollercoaster of teaching/not teaching/teaching again decides to level off.  I think having a couple of sweet babies to occupy my time should take care of that!

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